The Process

9.11.12

Today has not been my best day. I didn't wake up when I wanted, during lecture I was unfocused, we had 8 hours of lecture mostly on pharm (my worst subject), and I trained while drained after class and did not have the best workout.

I have two options right now. I can call it quits and go to bed. Or I can put in a couple more hours of studying before I go to bed. I'm going to study to the best of my ability for as long as I can. I've found for myself, if I get out of my routine it's incredibly difficult to get back on track. This blog I put off yesterday and that was a mistake. I should have got in and written a post even if it was 1 sentence. The little things in life matter. Perception matters, small acts of kindness matter, small conversation matters, saying hello matters, smiling matters, reading every article matters, and every breath you take matters.

The thing I've always had trouble with is planning and executing on the plans I've made. This is not the most efficient method. It allows me to procrastinate and eliminates a lot of self evaluation. By planning are able to get more out of your day. I believe this leads to happiness. Once you start planning out your days you need to remain flexible. I've had a million experiences when I get frustrated about things I cannot control. I'm furious when someone is inconsiderate, professors keep me after our lunch break, or I'm late for something. I need to learn to let it go. I get so caught up in the moment and I don't take a step back and look at where I really am. I get over critical of myself and others.

I know everything comes down to balance. Balance my time, balance my work, play, rest and prayer. By balancing those things and taking life as it is I know I'll be a lot happier. Everything matters, do the little things.

Sorry this post was not linear. God bless, V&V